faithfulness

Maybe I've been the problem, maybe I'm the one to blame but even when I turn it off and blame myself, the outcome feels the same I've been thinkin maybe I've been partly cloudy, maybe I'm the chance of rain, maybe I'm overcast, and maybe all my lucks washed down the drain.

I've been thinking 'bout everyone, everyone you look so lonely

But when I look at the stars, when I look at the stars, when I look at the stars I see someone else. When I look at the stars, the stars, I feel like myself.

I'm not going to do the normal year end post, about how I look back at 2009 and talk about all the things I did right, did wrong, or didn't do. I'm not going to look back and go "Man, I wish I had time for this..." or "That was stupid..." because years are just a way to mark the passing of time, not the passing of life.

True, the past 365 days have been different than the 365 days before them (730 days have passed since the beginning of 2008) but I'm looking at the days ahead of me.

I've started, with a slump, a daily blog for Longrock Chronicles, I've been accepted into Tellious, our church's leadership training thing (which is weird to think about out loud), I'm involved in church youth, the Refinery which I think is starting to take off and its visioning team.

I'm moving forward, no longer worried about 2010 being "the year" or whatever, I'm moving forward, knowing that next year, at this time, everyone else will be talking about the resolutions they couldn't keep, and I'll be looking ahead still at what I have to accomplish.

These things all came from a little star I drew this past Sunday, Faithfulness, a fruit of the spirit, a gift from God, who wants to use this gift in my life to really get to understand Him and "get" Him more than ever.

In the few days since it, I've pushed myself and I'm already starting to see the big picture more clearly. I'm starting to get to see why everything is so rough for everyone right now, I finally understand that God wants me to live in peace with Him, joyously with Him, which will bring the same to others around me and all I needed was a little faithfulness in Him.

Praise be.